Safety Poster? How about a safety poster for my own safety?

Okay...yesterday after I came back from Amcorp Mall, just went blank
as I pengsan on bed till 5am++ ==!!!

I want to say!!! That my life is so screwed
All because of 1 subject right now!
My safety poster, for IDKWTH reason keep kena reject the design n concept
I have been redoing the thing like for 4-5 weeks edi
My concept is a poster, Do not provoke animals..
First it was meant to be a lion/bear themed..
So i sketched out and he said, my bear looks like a monster..OK nvm!

Then i did the Illustrator file..of the lion which i traced from my sketch!
He said MY SKETCH punya lion look more fierce!
WTF u wanna say? Trace out from the scan one
U dare say its different??!!!It looks more tame issit in AI?

Ugh, like lightning doesnt strike twice in the same place?
Then i trace a lioness to but it was hard cus..
I don wanna make it so complex!
But he said, its too simplified, and dun mind the text etc 1st..
SHYT!!!!! And it was like during the time i was sick like HELL
jst before the mid-sem break!

So at mid-sem break I tried the other concept he gave me..
Put more animals inside, so i put in around 10 common animals in Zoo
He said!! IT DOESNT HAPPEN LIKE THIS IN REAL LIFE!
"NOT LOGIC"
WTF?!!!!! As if got ppl will provoke a bear/lion in real life?!

Then i made another 1..a bear...Traced and drawin in Tribal Tattoo style..
He said it looks like a shopping poster this time, not a Safety poster
Okay, when only u will be satisfied with my work?
Im doing the best i can with ur work, u know?
I dun know, is my concept that hard for u to accept?
I spent so many time to redo just this subject's 1st assignment
And ur delaying and dragging it like this?

I think n think till my head pain!
I am just human!
I am already trying my best to cope with the work!
U dun know how much stressed we are with the assignments!
As well as how rest-deprived I am, don't you?
I feel like crying at the agony of your subject!

Thank you Visual Communication.
U have succeeded well in making me close to crying.

Choices...A strage thing

Ever wonder what would happen if u chose a different path at some point in life?
Yes..choices, life is full of them. You life with them...
I "live" wi h them choices..affecting my life a lot..

Never rly was "open" that much towards people in the past...
Friends also, not all are really that close with, yet there few
that made me feel comfy,yes im the easy-nervous/panic type..

Now also, after coming out to college now..the choice made
Actually made me much more open now.
Talk to people more...and knowing more people
Its like a whole metamorphosis thinggy...
Now at least i interact more...talk more
Enjoy more, live life as it is.

But if I had taken a different choice in life?
I wondered..if didnt chase my own interest
Choosing to study instead of design..
Then it would stay as it were in high school?...
Spending time together like almost everyday...b4 n aft sch..
Now? The total time is less than 1 month a year...
Even holidays do not seem to match...but at least it made me come,
to cherish moments of being together..cherishing the warmth~ ^^

Thoughts while doing work...

Okay..once i have the time i should really customize this blog...since it is mine..and I should be more responsible for it...Even if I have 0 knowledge on HTML/CSS....

So its like almost 6 in the morning, and what am I still doing here blogging anyways?
Do not comprehend...Why?
1st week back from mid-sem brek and Im already killing myself...
The stress..the need to rest..Poster for V.Comm i did already..but lecturer said..
"Where is the original idea we developed?" and i was stunned...
Now i wonder why did i change the concept and did few other animals..
He said not logic?..I dunno...just like tht time I had nothing else to say..
So now..went bak and did the poster AGAIN with a different concept this time..
The visual i think i did insert Gestalt Principles but with Tribal Tattoo styling..
Please accept...I dont wanna waste my time....
I already have no time.....Malaysian studies test also i did not take it...
Cus the whole week i was SICK badly..
and now also i still havent even read a sentence of it...
Maybe..I'll just skip the test?..Sigh.....

Then....there's my patience these days..
Sometimes get crazy due t the load of stress on me
Try to cope with sleeping 3-5H a day is hard already..
Sometimes i get so mad i bang the table or somethg to relieve self..
Don't wanna be like last time when i got boiling mad at home..
And accidently banged the glass door!!!
Whole glass broke and my hand wound up bleeding with the scar now ==...

“I am just human. This mind is weak as it is to the body. Yes, as this is me for who I am."

I need a VACATION...need help....need rescue from drowning!!

Alrite..What should i say? Its practically almost 6 in the morning...

Someone up there must hate me...Cus doing work like almost done!

Then suddenly my monitor goes black! Okay...i was like..blurring

Tot i got save my work or not?..!! Cus..the trials of now..im burning oil

EVERYDAY!
Just to finish my assignments!

Only to find it!!!!!!
NO~PHOTOSHOP JAMN!!!
Work gone..
From like 3am..
I blur ...getting flu n cough AGAIN!

U SEE?!!! I AT HOME CAN GET ENOUGH SLEEP EVRYDAY ALSO!
GETTING SICK!
MY LIFE IS SHORTENED BY A LOT!!!


Think about it...getting sick after fully healed in a duration of just 1 week?
Is it a blessing or a curse?
Assignments tht keep pouring in and i can never finish...
Keep on thinking alot....
My work pace is slow...
Dont know...how stress am I..
How i wish if u were right here...
Really down...im exhausted..tired..beat..
Mentally...Physically...
My eyes really look like a panda...
I do not know how to survive the next 11 weeks...
I really really wanna cry already...
But cant ==...Cus im a guy, okay..
Try to rough it through...
Dont know anymore..
Blurring..Confused..Tired..and more..
So many in one....
Wish ur holidays will come soon...
...Feel rly down n cold...